Pull it together. Stop acting like this, your not the one with problems the people around you have problems. Your meant to be strong, your the one they need to keep them strong. Your the glue thats holding them together.
But what If the glues falling apart and losing its grip, then everything and everyone around it falls apart. I cant let that happen. I’m the glue, I’m the one holding things together. I’m the one who needs to harden up and get it in my head.
Everything I’ve ever loved has ended. Whether it was the job I loved with all my heart and wanted to keep more than anything because it made me happy or its a friend that I confided in and told everything to. Even the subject at school that I would look forward to everyday. Anything and everything I have ever loved has change, turned on me or just left me completely. I love you with all my heart I have never loved anything in my life more than I love you. You are everything to me the one thing that stops me from falling into this hole that is waiting to swallow me whole. You are the one thing keeping me on top. Im scared so very very scared about when it happens, what always happens because I love you that means its too good to be true it means that you will either change, turn on me or leave me completely. I can’t cope with that I swear I can’t. It will finish me, send me deep into this hole that is waiting and I know I will never return. It’s there I will stay for the rest of my existence. But the question is not if, its when. How long do I have to still be happy because right now I’m the happiest I’ve been and I want to stay that way. When will you turn on me, When will I be left broken?
